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Burdens

Burden = I just want to be me I don't want to have to stop being me in order for everyone else to be happy then I'm not happy any more.

Burden= motherhood. I am the adoptive mother of 3 children who were taken from their parents by the state. This is a role I have chosen and I know it is what I/we are meant to do. But sometimes its so hard! Why if I'm walking the Path I'm meant to be on is it *so hard*? I'm not quitting I'm not giving up but I could use a transformed attitude. Thanks.

Burden = MY HEART ACHES TO FIND MY ONLY SON AND ONLY CHILD BORN 03/05/65 RICHARD ALLEN PEELMAN IN ERIE PA AT ST. VINCENT HEALTH CENTER- PLEASE HOPE WITH ME FOR HIS LOCATION

Burden = Congress was getting ready to cut off funding to the ATF. The ATF needed some prime time publicity. That is why, they did a daylight raid on the Branch Dividian compound in Waco. That is why, the public relations department of the ATF leaked the raid the day before ie... they hoped to provoke a confrontation. A 100 people were sacrificed to a dying bureaucracy. The ATF got it's funding.

Burden = Fear of lack of money for next semester and of not being to move out of our apartment that has no air conditioning. (not a good thing in the SW)

Burden = How do you develop a sense of self-esteem when you can't even find a glimmer of a feeling that you're worth the effort?

Burden = I bear in my soul the burden of centuries of British tyrany in Belfast.

Burden = burden is to tell birth mother that she did the right thing in my adoption- born 06/06.60 in London Ontario Canada as "Susan Marie" adopted by great couple who loved educated and well cared for me - Mom I'm alright! Hopefully someday I will be able to assure this of the woman who gave me life and a 8 lb. baby she wouldn't likely forget!

Burden = I'm a birthmother searching for the son I lost to adoption in 1969. He was born in Hempstead Long Island NY on October 14 1969. Adoption was finalized in the neighboring county of Suffolk Long Island.

Burden = have been trying to reach david - is there another way?dstevens@smtp2.wstf.nasa.gov

Burden = I just can't see what the point of life is. I try and try but the effort seems wasted. I will probably end it all soon. It's just too hard to pretend anymore. I dread getting up. Each day i play the part of a normal guy "Hi How are ya? Great day outside huh?" but inside there are just too many things pulling me under! (So much I want to say but I just can't let myself.) Thanks for taking the time to read and sorry if I bought you down.

Burden = hi its dorion again. i have been trying out e-mail don't know how it's going.can you help my friend find her birthparents?born in dallas tx. on1/10/39 at 4:20 am certificate #2117 this was filed on 11/17/39 in travis county tx.(female). can you help? you have my e-mail thankyou

Burden = my burdon is my 16 yr old teenage daughter.

Burden = MUST FIND BIRTH SON BORN 6-3-72

Burden = I am looking for the birth parents of Michael David Dewitt born March 2 1966 at the Salvation Army Hospital in SanDiego.Cal. JGaines519@aol:com

Burden = I am looking for the birth parents of Michael David Dewitt born March 2 1966 at the Salvation Army Hospital in SanDiego.Cal. JGaines519@aol:com

Burden = compulsive over-eating which make managing diabetes impossible. why is eating disorder research only on anorexia and bulimia?

Burden = rejection from birthparents and adoptive parents is hard to take.

Burden = BURDEN= the grief from my mother's death is unbearable.

Burden = unmet expectations; unfulfilled dreams; sound familiar? Want to do and be more that I am. I am a basic person but have unbasic desires and want to "get in touch" ....tired of work and reality!

Burden = unmet expectations; unfulfilled dreams; sound familiar? Want to do and be more that I am. I am a basic person but have unbasic desires and want to "get in touch" ....tired of work and reality! 26 years of thinking about the daughter I gave up...can't find her and desperately want to! Born 4-22-69 Lincoln Nebraska. Send positive thoughts her way..maybe she'll change her mind about wanting to meet me....she would be glad she did! Thanks to the universe!

Burden = I have made a life for myself and now I wonder if I made a mistake. I am not unhappy and yet I am not truly happy either. I keep hoping that something will happen to prove to me that I have done the right thing. My burden is unconnectedness with my inner self - I want to be more then I am but how do I do this if I am unsure who I really am? Great Universe - transform my burden!

Burden = Burden:Finding out you 19 year marriage to a man you truely love has been for not.Dear God give me strengh. I need it so much. Justget me through one more day................

Burden = I must find my son. I gave him up so he would have a much better life then I could give him. This was in 1972. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I pray he will forgive me for my wrong. I now am older and so much wiser if only I knew than what I know now. Anyone even thinking of giving a child up should think again. :-(

Burden = As a birthfather of a one night affair I do not even know if the child who was conceived is a boy or girl! My burden is for that child who might like to meet this creep! If you were born in early 1970 and since the one day affair took place in Milwaukee I suspect that you may have been born there. I pray that it is I that you are looking for and that if so you will forgive me for taking so long to let you know where I am. The only other clue that I can offer you is that I was a part time bartender at the Crazy Horse in Milwaukee Wisconsin and was drafted and ended up in the Airforce to do radio and television. I don't know your mother's name but she was a blonde young beautiful woman. I hope she kept you and you and that she is well. God bless you.

Burden = Searching for twin girls born in Seattle area around 1958 or 1959. Their names are Donita and Marita but we called them Doni and Rita. Please read home page at: http://www.premier1.net/~lalg. Thanks

Burden = I going out with a date with my "girlfriends" best friend.

Burden = I have a heavy load to bare and I know I'm not alone. My only child I gave to adoption and looking for him seems to an end I am unable to afford the fees of the services and I don't know where else to turn. Martin if you are out there please look at netscape news group alt. adoption for a letter to you. You will recognise it by ISO son born 1976 Pensacola Florida. Help me to find you. I love you so much. Please read the news article in Netscape it will help answer your questions.

Burden = Janice Kay Jay: Where are you? You gave birth to me in Dallas Texas on January 13 1965. I am looking for you...do you want to find me too?

Burden = my burden is looking back at so many regrets of taking the easier way out of things which has led me to a life of mediocrity and a hasband of 4 monthes who is an alcoholic and the fact that I am stopped dead in a search for my natural mother. born 8/15/70 in slc Utah please contact utah registry if you are out there!

Burden = I gave birth to a daughter on 3/3/67 at a very young age and without much experience. I foolishly gave my daughter up for adoption in Sacremento County Sacremento CA. I had no idea of what I was doing nor the consequences. I am desperately trying to find my daughter that I without knowledge of recourse gave up for adoption. If anyone can help please E-Mail my son at dhunter@email.usps.gov or call 703-280-7901 or mail information to 15712 Dorset Rd#203 Laurel MD 20707-5349. I need to thank my daughter's family for taking caring loving and providing for my daughter I as I wish now that I could have. Before I leave this Earth I need to hold my daughter and tell her her how much I love her since the moment of conception. I miss her dearly and I think of her every BirthDay MothersDay and all other special holidays. There is a void in my life and I need to fulfill it. Any help would be greatly appreciated. My life is not complete yet and my heart yearns for completion. This is you brother David L. Hunter writing for our mom Patricia J. Fernandes - Patricia J. Bates

Burden = I want to get involved in the real estate industry but have neither the money or credit.

Burden = I got an advanced education but I haven't made lots of money although I still seemed to have found happiness in spite of it all

Burden = I have a problem. Im searching for my birthfather. I dont know anything of him except a nick name of chico and that he was married (not to bmother) and has kids of his own. I want to find him. But im concerend that i might hurt his marrige or if he is even married. but i want him to know that im his. What can i do? email me with thoughts at: lysol@cyberhighway.net Keri

Burden = My burden is: after reading everybody else's burdens mine seem so insignificant!!!

Burden = I want to be reunited with my daughter born june23 1983 in New Orleans LA.Also i want my huspand to get a better job offer that makes him and the rest of the family happy

Burden = burden: i wonder if there is anyone out there looking for me or or who even cares that they have a daughter born july 16/17 1949 in spokane wa. at sacred heart hospital. both my adoptive parents are passed on and i feel so disconnected and alone. i son't want to invade their lives i just want to know who i and my daughters look like. i really need to feel like i belong to somewhere.

Burden = I am looking for the son I placed for adoption in June 1966. Scot was born 6/5/66 at Good Sam Hospital in Cincinnati. Scott if you are looking for me as I am for you please e-mail me at BarbinOhio@aol.com. I have never stopped thinking about you! We will take it on your terms.

Burden = Mine is a tiny ongoing ache more than a burden common to most adoptees I'm sure. Just never having touched someone who has the same blood (and maybe heart!). We can have very good lives without it I've learned but we are always aware that we are a little different eh? Reaching out and helping others helps our own burdens seem smaller I find. Peace to all who read this.

Burden = Am helping a good friend in her search for her birth parents. She has very little information. Her name is now Elizabeth (Libby) Coleman Jackson. She was adopted at 9 days old born 12/10/67. She was born in Indianapolis In and adopted through Coleman Adoption Agency. She knows that her mother was about 19 had blond hair blue eyes; and that her father was about the same age with dark hair and dark complexion. Libby is a wonderful/energized/deep and sensitive young woman with a Masters in Social Work. If you have any leads please contact us a Pies@juno.com I can't even imagine what it must be like to have given birth to such a wonderful human being and not even have the opportunity to know her.

Burden = Burden=I am so scared. I have just begun by search for my birthparents. I feel like a 16 year old girl waiting for a blind date. I have waited so long what if they're dead or just don't care. What if they hate me. What if I hate them. Maybe this isn't a good idea after all.

Burden = Searching for brother that was born between 06/03/60 and 06/06/60 in Columbia Hospital Columbia S.C. Our mother died 4 days after giving birth. Have exhausted all resources. Father's name on birth certificate was listed as Clifford Lockwood. Any info please send to address: 103633.707. God Speed.

Burden = I want to find my brother Scott (Christopher) He was born on July 15 1970-71. My mother tried to care for him for three months but see knew she could'nt make it. He was adopted by a Baptist Minister and his wife Mike and Linda. He was born in the San Diego Area. Please e-mail me at: bilbobaggins@student.bethany.edu. We all want to meet you.

Burden = My name is Angela and I'm an adoptive mother of a 26 year old married woman. Recently she has become very ill with Lyme disease and each time a doctor is visited for her the first question is.....are your parents okay still alive good health etc. And there we stand always in the dark saying....well we don't know...she's adopted. She's very sick with this disease can't work...I would like to know the medical background of the biological parents so I can help her. She was born on May 4th 1970 in Jersey City Hospital Jersey City NJ. We know nothing of her past except that her biomother was sixteen. I wish I could help her....through the years I've asked if she'd like me to find the "real" parents....and she's always said please don't.....I think that comes from a fear of being rejected. Thanks for listening.

Burden = Challenge: letting go of the distortions of my personality which vascillates from the feeling of pride to worthlessness in order to honor my God Self and my destiny on the planet in service to others.

Burden = my inability to have children due to medical problems

Burden = my burden is all the pain sorrow unforgiving shallowness greed and human neglect associated thru mans intolerable concept of pointing a finger without reason. for this i have come to the conclusion. we need a world wide wake up call from from a higher source.

Burden = nude female bodybuilders

Burden = Providing for my families wellbeing now and in the future most especially...

Burden = Fear of failing my certification boards AGAIN. Lack of self-confidence. Being lonley.

Burden = burden: Am looking for my birth daughter born 7/2/71 in Layafette LA. Named Mary Virginia McClelland. my heart will fill with joy to see your face and hold your hand. I hope and pray that you have had a good life and that you were placed in the hands of someone that could care for you better than I could......marksara@rockislan.com

Burden = debt

Burden = My work place is closing ...im losing work

Burden = My work place is closing ...im losing work

Burden = My work place is closing ...im losing work

Burden = Searching for a brother:John Harpin Clark born 8/14/45 or '46 in Colorado.Mother was patient in county hospital possi bly Denver or Pueblo at the time. Mother's name is Daisy Mae (Wilson) Clark. Father's name was John Harpin Clark Jr. Infant son taken within days of birth and possibly adopted within state of Colorado.Anyone with information contact roadkill@mail.gte.net

Burden = I gave my only daughter up for adoption almost 22 years ago I had no choice in the matter I was only a child myself... I've not been able to have any other children. I held her in my arms before they took her and I miss her.

Burden = people who break laws to express their negative feelings about receiving unsolicited email

Burden = MY BURDEN IS THE PAIN AND ANGER I FEEL WHEN IVE COME TO A DEAD END IN LOCATING BIRTH MOTHER!!

Burden = SEARCHING!!! FOR MY BIRTHMOM HER NAME IS CONNIE RUTH BETLOCK I WAS BORN 9/25/70 AT SHAWNEE MISSION HOSPITAL KANSAS. AT TIME OF BIRTH BIRTHMOM WAS LIVING IN OVERLAND PARK KANSAS. IF YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION PLEASE CONTACT ME AT witschnb@kic.or.jp the url is called scooters place. THANK YOU AND PRAY FOR ME!!! BRADLEY

Burden = We are looking for my husbands daughter that was given up for adoption at birth. She was born in March April or May of 1969 in Santa Rosa CA. Mothers name Nancy Groy Father- Timothy J. Miller. Born at Warrack Hospital. If you have any information please email us. helenm@zapcom.net

Burden = I'm a single mom having trouble manging my work/family/financial life

Burden = Finding my daughter who was born to my girfriend at the time Francis (Frankie) Schlie. Born at St. Francis hospital in Wichita Ks. in the summer of 1966. Either August or September but probably August. Her grandfather who is deceased was Raymond Schlie who was from St. Louis Mo. Frankie's husband now is Charles Crandlemire. I think that they live in Huntingbeach Ca and have one daughter.

Burden = SEARCHING!!! FOR MY BIRTHMOM HER NAME IS CONNIE RUTH BETLOCK I WAS BORN 9/25/70 AT SHAWNEE MISSION HOSPITAL KANSAS. AT TIME OF BIRTH BIRTHMOM WAS LIVING IN OVERLAND PARK KANSAS. IF YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION PLEASE CONTACT ME AT witschnb@kic.or.jp the url is called scooters place. THANK YOU AND PRAY FOR ME!!! BRADLEY

Burden = SEARCHING!!! FOR MY BIRTHMOM HER NAME IS CONNIE RUTH BETLOCK I WAS BORN 9/25/70 AT SHAWNEE MISSION HOSPITAL KANSAS. AT TIME OF BIRTH BIRTHMOM WAS LIVING IN OVERLAND PARK KANSAS. IF YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION PLEASE CONTACT ME AT witschnb@kic.or.jp the url is called scooters place. THANK YOU AND PRAY FOR ME!!! BRADLEY

Burden = My burden is I am very lonely and want to find my birth mother I married a terrible person who I can't get out of my life and I am truly at a dead end with my life

Burden = BURDEN:What seems like a never ending quest in search of my bDaughter DANIELLE MARIE NEVINS 05/12/77. (kim33073@aol.com)BUT I will NEVER GIVE UP!!! :~)

Burden = Searching for my birthdaughter. she was born 11-6-6O in Fresno Califnora at the Fresno Community Hospital. Name on her birth certificate was: Lloyd/Horton. Mothers maiden name Diar. Married name Lloyd. To find this child would end all of my burdens.

Burden = I just don't seem to be able to make enough money to afford the basics and enjoy life.

Burden = I have everything - a man who loves me the job I've always wanted no serious money problems - and I still can't be happy (an internal problem I just can't seem to fix).

Burden = I have a old girl friend that constintly bitches at me

Burden = The end is nigh and wool socks are to blame! -- Mark Drury

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Burden = burden.... my 26 yr old daughter is ill and her congential heart murmur is getting worse... we need to find my matern al birth family asap for more info. genetic information could help resolve my daughters situation... oh please great spirit and wonderous universe help fulfill my intents this child should not suffer for the folly of my ancestors.... her mother the raven

Burden = Trying to find my birth daughter. Money pressures trying to stay ahead of the game + having my husband's New boss pay him as well as cover at least some of the many expences associated with starting up a business enviroment in our home.

Burden = I HAROLD . HIS NAME IS EDDY EWING. SHE WAS BORN IN SHREVEPORT LA. 3-22-1927OR 28.WISH TO FIND MY BIRTH PARENTS. HER NAME WAS DENNIE CAROLYN

Burden = I am looking for my niece. My sister had her sometime between 1971 and 1973. I am unsure of month. She was born in Corvallis Oregon at the Good Samaritan Hospital. That is all the information that I have. I was living overseas at the time of the birth and subsequent adoption. I know that she weighed just alittle over 5 lbs. Please someone help me in this seach.

Burden = I am tired of living my life alone.

Burden = I would like to remove all bodily pain and dis-ease.. and in doin so. help the planet to do so too.

Burden = I hate my husband. I feel oppressed. It makes me physically sick just to look at him. I don't want to feel this way. I just want to be happy but I really don't think I can love this man. I'm beginning to believe I can't love any man. I know I can love - I love my son and I love his daughter both to distraction. I love my brother who also lives with us. But I detest this oppressive overbearing asshole of a husband.

Burden = My father died of lung cancer in May my 5 year olds daddy died of lung cancer 2 years ago. My brother committed suicide when he was 20. I found my birth father last march and was rejected by his family. I'm scared lonely want to find birthmommy. Maureen louise Mullan Carpenter Tiller WHERE ARE YOU!!!

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Burden = Hello to all that have a burden My name is Furie I was adopted at 6 days old I have found my Bmom and Bfather I a m from Milwaukee around the year 1949. My burden is that I didn't get to meet my Bmom she died of cancer 7 months before I found her. I now realize that in life there are reasons for everything basically cause and effect. Recently I made a list of all the old memories that I could. Places that I lived at people that I met and were friends with. The homes that i lived in and why were they always on a corner??? Why do certain names always come up. My burden is understanding Why me and why this planet??? So to all that read this I ask you to first look inside yourself first and understand who you are by what you have done in the past because we create our own reality I have created myself and my situations the problem lies in that we are all programmed by those that want us to be what they could not be... Hey thanks for reading this and may you f! ind yourself just remember that we all get to come back.....Furie....

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Burden = My burden is not being able to help my husband with his pain. He has brain tumors. They are in the brain stem. He has lymphoma and the bone marrow is involved. He has gone through (and still is going through) chemo and radiation. I watch this 5'11" 195lb wonderful man struggle through these past 6 months. He is now 135lbs and needs my constant care. I am not working so I am able to be with him and care for his every need. We have lost everything we own (including insurance policies that would have helped) due to overwhelming medical bills. We now live on social security disability income due to our situation. We have both always been independant and made a really great financial living at one time. I have been thankful for lessons learned while going through this terrible illness. Family and friends are the most important "things" we can have. I just wish a cure for all cancers was already here. By the way I am only 34..... I planned on being with my best friend forever........ When it is time for him to leave....I hope I have the strength to stay in this world....

Burden = Inertia...That is the thing that my thirties seem to be about. As a younger man I *knew* what I was doing where I was going. At the age of 29 Saturn (principle of restriction and discipline) made it's return to it's natal position...and life is just not the same. The older I get the less I know and the more convinced I am of it. A lost 33 year old.

Burden = I want my friend to regain her health and vivacity.

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Burden = Adpotion search results found half-brother another half brother is a criminal. Father died three years ago drank him self to death he was married seven times each marriage produced offspring. Mother is alive married five times that I know of had offspring byeach marriage. I dont want this many relatives. I dont need this many relatives.

Burden = Adoptee: born 11 Aug 67 in NY; beginning the search for birthparents. They were each married but not to each other and I fear this may make the search process more difficult; or at least the actual discovery....e-mail me keltoi@flash.net

Burden = I am an overweight female formerly abused by grandfather. I am an adoptee in search of my bparents but afraid that the dream of giving me a better life was not realized. I also gave up twins for adoption and pray for them daily.

Burden = I'm a birth father who is searching for child born in Jan or Feb 1970 in NNY. I finally located birth mother but she gave me false information to confuse my search. I need wisdom to go on with the search without her help. I'm nearly 50. Will I ever find you?

Burden = I know I was born with the capability to love (romantically) and to be loved. Why can't it be the same person?

Burden = no time... not enough time

Burden = My husband has no idea about all of the wonderful things that go on around him

Burden = Tears are streaming down my face as I write this.. I was reading all the others burdens and feel such pain for all of y ou.. my burden is now where near as bad as I thought.. People always tell me that i am smart and beautiful and that i make people laugh.. but I am crying inside i feel fat and ugly.. I want to go to college and be a vet but have no maoney or time I shave to stay home and care for my child while hubby works 7 days a week to support us.. I am in night classes now but not for what i want :( I feel like i am in a whirlpool of despair and i am going down fast.. I try to dstay cheery but then i wonder why i bother~~ then my Beth "angel" walks in the room and i remember whats important.. will i ever have true happiness??? what have i done to hurt like this..

Burden = I am searching for my husbands birth mother.. He was born on 9-17-58 in Grant Hospital in Chicago.. We were told that his moms last nem at the time of his birth was "Fisher" if anyone has any info please Email me at WULFHART@AOL.COM

Burden = I sometimes think that I have many burdens and problems. When I look at them I find that they all go back to the recent passing of my mom. I am hoping that in time I will be able to remember her for the amazing person she was and all that she gave. Until then I need to learn to live with the tears.

Burden = Burden---trying to find daughter I was forced to give up for adoption. She was born 6/13/68. Also not being able to fin d a companion that truly wishes to "connect" and share with each other. I have a pitiful opinion of myself and I can't quit smoking cigarettes no matter what I try to do to stop. Sometimes I feel as useless and unworthy as a empty bottle of water.

Burden = my biggest burden is that I gather everyone else's burdens & don't know how to share my own. Perhaps this is a safe place to start learning to share without fear of unjust retribution!

Burden = I gave up a son for adoption in 1990. I was 19 years old. I know he's not even old enough to really be looking for me yet he may not even know he's adopted. My burden is endless wondering how he is. I know I could not give him adequate care but I'm always thinking about him. I hope he is doing well.

Burden = PP DAY is any day during the first week of July. PP is a human waste byproduct i.e., pronounced Pee-Pee. PP is your favorite bureaucrat - your favorite Public Puke. Put the two together on PP DAY. Visit your favorite public facility and leave behind a puddle. Let the Public Pukes wallow in a toilet.

Burden = Thurdsay I will travel to Canada for cornea surgery. The journey is long and surgery frightening. I must leave behind my three cats who will not understand my I've left them. I must trust my sight to strangers. I fear I am risking more than even I realize.

Burden = anxiety

Burden = my burden is feeling that I am not self confident enough to reach for the gold ring forget the brass I want it all... but I can't seem to find the ability to grab hold of my dreams....Why can't I just do it???

Burden = I would like to not worry about money

Burden = Being an Adoptee sealed records and the thought that finding out who I am might not solve anything!!!

Burden = I'm in love with a married man

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Burden = Ok the very thought of this page in existence has brought up my mood. I can only ask for continued growth mentally s piritually and personally. Why does it seem so difficult at times? Any way a burden I would like to transform today Here and Now would be patience. I need it as I continuqlly get angry with myself when I stray from my consiousness. It affects me as a parent and a person. Please grant me patience.

Burden = I've two businesses that I'm trying to get off the ground..........good ideas but just not taking off yet. Want these to work so I can get out of my deadend job.Help!!!!!!!!

Burden = I'm alone and tired of people playing head games with me. I don't like my emotions being emotionally spent and being deemed worthless by someone I think is special. or was special. I'm tired of head gaming.

Burden = I have been diagnosed with Multiple Personality Disorder and correspond with several support groups on the web particu larly abuse survivors and those interested in and searching for adoption reunion. My problem is I never know which of my alters will be on line each day and one of us is a real shit disturber and always challenging the groups to change and grow and get on with it and stop pussy-footing around and whining about too much email. Either accept the support group's email or get off the list! Then the nice quiet little me gets flamed and that devastates me and I don't know what to do other than to stay off the web. However I've been using the email as a great place to start overcoming my social phobia and it's helping a lot to the points that the flames aren't so hard to take now.

Burden = I'm depressed and afraid of life. I am also alcoholic

Burden = I'm in a tough spot right now. Unemployed rent is going to be due soon and obsessively looking for my birth parents. I'm ready to turn over my anxieties and tension and head to the next level of my life. I know that for every extreme low is an extreme high but it's still hard being down hear at the bottom.

Burden = ADOPTED DONALD JAMES RUSSELL BIRTHDATE 02-21-50 OR 02-27-51 I AM YOUR SISTER LOOKING FOR YOU FOR YEARS YOU WERE BORN IN COVINGTON KY AND RAISED IN CINCINNATI OH I THINK. I LOVE YOU PLEASE CONTACT purrie@fuse.net LOVE DARLENE

Burden = I took the wrong turn 20 odd years ago away from the arts where my heart lies to the sciences where I thought the money would be. Now I am stuck - at the bottom of the science ladder - with the regular family ball and chain stuff. Sometimes I feel I am Balaam's Ass.

Burden = I am a 26 yr old female adoptee searching for her birthparents. I was born 8-6-70 in Cape Fear Valley Hospital in Cape Fear North Carolina. I am emotionally mentally stable but feel something is missing. Where is someone who looks like me?

Burden = I feel unhealthy physically and emotionally. I am recovering slowly from agorophobia which still keeps me from hav ing much fun. I have palpitations which I have been told are a result of stress and anxiety. I'm overcautious and afraid of everything! It's so discouraging. I'm only 19 I'm happily married and should be having a good time...but I'm not.

Burden = My greatest joys are inexpensive or free. Yet the choices I've made for ten years leave me poor and in debt. Physical work seems to most satisfying and intellectual work seems to make unnessary things for the world. But the brain game pays the best.

Burden = My burden is that my soulmate is in turmoil and needs help and I can't help for he wishes only to be alone.

Burden = I have no money. I need a job but I have no qualifications. I feel like my life is going nowhere.

Burden = Fear of being rejected by someone I care a great deal about

Burden = My neck hurts today and my head ached all night. My hip is deteriorating and arthritis has set in. My body feels like it was wrung like a wet wash rag. My head is filled with flames that have set my eyebrows afire. Who Am I? Did I inherit these things I have described from someone. Did I evolve from a piece of the MOTHER EARTH? Could someone please give me the golden key to my heritage... Where Are they? My siblings. My mother is dead she was old. My father died long ago and didn't know. I long to know who looks like me. Please help me get the relief I need. The aspirin of truth. The motrin of life. The Murine to put the fire out in my eyes. The hot sun to warm my soul and fill the void of rejection. Please God answer my prayers Give me my life My history to existance AMy ethnic background My religion My race I just want one piece of the earth to die with........

Burden = looking for birthfamily - adopted female bd 6/18/68 in Cheyenne WY. Was told my bmom was 19 and a college student fro m Nebraska. Was also told that searching for my b-family means I don't need my adopted one anymore by adoptive mom. Is pre-rejection supposed to prepare me for an ultimate rejection by b-family?!? UGH!! Just started my search - helpful info can be sent to jmusic@sprynet.com. Thanks and Peace.

Burden = Burden= I was adopted in 1962. I was born on August 22 1958. In desperate search for my natural parents Violet Mae Nowery Marks And Richard Earl Marks.In 1958 They lived in Zanesville Ohio If any one reads this and knows them please E-Mail me at Ltran@bgsm.edu. Thanks for listening

Burden = Adoptee;Looking for birth mother or birth family.Born Johnny Entwistle to mother Frances Entwistle 0n Feb.28 1953.Adoption through Chicago Foundling home.Any help would be greatly appreciated.E-mail is WKimes8161@aol.com

Burden = I wonder how many people out there besides myself spend to much time worrying about why they are here. I have always felt I had this real purpose that I'm supposed to find and live by but I can't find it. In the mean time I'm scared that while I'm trying to get by in life that purpose will appear but I'll be to busy doing some meaningless task to notice. Katana2@webtv.net

Burden = I am weak and foolish. I have not been doing anything good for me latley.

Burden = As an adult adoptee nearing 50 years old I realize that my biological parents are nearing the end of their time here o n earth. I would like to find them NOW. I was born in Detroit MI 5/7/49 to a woman named Finnegan. My name now is Kevin M. Brown. My homepage: http://www.shianet.org/~kevin will give you more info or email me: kevinm@shianet.org. Thanks!

Burden = To the guy who wondered what life is for The purpose of life is to waste your life profitably. It is a Chinese idea in art called wei-wu-wei which translates as effortless effort... cut with the grain not against the grain swim with the current don't fight the currents. Everyone has their own right way. Follow your feelings and your intuitions. Your intuition is what you have already worked out in your mind that you know is right. Trust yourself. Write down what you really want and try to do what is in your heart. The only thing that you should worry about is if you are worrying. A hundred little worries make up one big fear. Do whatever you feel is right not what other people say that you are supposed to do. You can't please everybody. All suffering comes from emotionally-backed expectations. Expect nothing and you want be disappointed. You can do more for yourself than anyone else including your parents. Children are like arrows shot from bo! ws.

Burden = My life is just not what I imagined and dreamed it would be when I grew up. There are so many things I want to do and so much that I am capable of... The really sad thing is that what is holding me back is the almighty dollar. My husband and I work ourselves to the bone just to make ends meet.

Burden = I HAVE BEEN SEEING SOMEONE FOR THREE YEARS HE IS MARRIED. I WENT INTO THE RELATIONSHIP WITH THE KNOWLEDGE THAT HE AN D HIS WIFE SHARED A PLACE BECAUSE THEY HAVE TWO CHILDREN. THAT THERE WAS NO RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THEM THEY SLEEP IN SEPARATE ROOMS SHE WORKS NIGHTS HE WORKS DAYS THEY LEAD SEPARATE LIVES. THERE WAS NO SNEAKING AROUND SHE KNEW ABOUT ME. (OR SO I THINK). I RECENTLY CAME TO FIND OUT THAT HE IS DENYING SEEING ME. SHE HAS HER SUSPISIONS SHE'S TALKED TO HER SISTER. BUT WHEN ASKED HE SWORE UP AND DOWN THAT HE'S NOT "F---ING" AROUND ON HER. I HAVEN'T SLEPT WITH HIM SINCE I FOUND OUT. HE SAYS HE DOESNT WANT TO LOSE HIS KIDS HE DOESN'T WANT TO SEE THEM ONLY ON THE WEEKENDS. HE ALSO SAYS HE LOVES ME. HE SAYS HE'S STAYING WHERE HE IS BUT HE KEEPS COMING AROUND TO ME (EVEN THOUGH WE HAVEN'T BEEN INTIMATE). I LOVE HIM STILL I KNOW THAT MIGHT SOUND SAD BUT WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER 3 YEARS AND MY HEART STILL GETS BUTTERFLIES IN IT WHEN I SEE HIM. NEVE! R IN

Burden = my computer! i love it but it is so frustrating sometimes!

Burden = money (debt) * bills * unemployment (major burden)

Burden = My sister needs to escape from a bad situation but feels

Burden = My sister needs to escape from a bad situation but feels

Burden = I terribily miss my 9 year old nephew "Jason Micheal Tinerrello" who died in a car accident Nov.'1996

Burden = So many toys so little time... Oh and those )$&@(#$^!

Burden = having fun without ruining my life..without being left behind. letting my mother know i am not like everyone else that i make my own decisions..not my friends. having to deal with others problems..but how can i just leave them?

Burden = I never seem to have enough money in my life. It seems that the minute I get a little I manage to immediately get rid of it often in inappropriate ways. Then along come the bills and OOPS I'm scrambling and panicing again. I want this pattern to stop! I want to have and be able to manage money such that my bills get met and I can have fun too!

Burden = Sixteen years ago I started my professional development program. Today I am one month away from my goal and I am $3000 dollars short. Contact DuWizrd@aol.com if you can help.

Burden = The weight of the web is making my shoulders sag and I must fight daily the urge to heave the computer out the window.

Burden = Good News -- After 42 years I reconnected with my birth family. Fantastic News -- I have prepared to help them transform and heal. Incredible News -- I left my job to and spent all of my savings to complete my training. Bad News -- I am stranded in California $3000 short of my goal and my family "can't" help. Help DuWizrd@aol.com Assistance will be repaid in spades.

Burden = I have to listen to this one person complain all day long.

Burden = I worry about paying all my bills and taking care of my children. I also need to reestablish a relationship with my daughter.

Burden = I am enaged but have two children to two differnent women.

Burden = I am a birthmom searching for her only child (natural or otherwise). Born Theresa Michele Brogan on 09/27/69 in New Orleans La. and adoption handled by Catholic Charities. Would like to share health information and let her know that I've never stopped loving her or celebrating her birthday. Would like reunion only if she seeks it... her comfort is still my greatest concern! My parents are both recently deceased and they went to their grave grieving over their mistake in forcing me to give up my only child...They both requested that she be counted in the survivng grandchildren in their obituaries. I am still and forever grieving! I need transformation from :-( to :-)!

Burden = I am a birthmom searching for her only child (natural or otherwise). Born Theresa Michele Brogan on 09/27/69 in New Orleans La. and adoption handled by Catholic Charities. Would like to share health information and let her know that I've never stopped loving her or celebrating her birthday. Would like reunion only if she seeks it... her comfort is still my greatest concern! My parents are both recently deceased and they went to their grave grieving over their mistake in forcing me to give up my only child...They both requested that she be counted in the survivng grandchildren in their obituaries. I am still and forever grieving! I need transformation from :-( to :-)! If anyone has any info e-mail me johnbea@swbell.net or bsteelman@juno.com

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Burden = ROFLMAO HA HA HA>>> this is a neat way to cleanse the spirit. Reminds me of the 'burning bowl' ceremony!

Burden = ROFLMAO HA HA HA>>> this is a neat way to cleanse the spirit. Reminds me of the 'burning bowl' ceremony!

Burden = ROFLMAO HA HA HA>>> this is a neat way to cleanse the spirit. Reminds me of the 'burning bowl' ceremony!

Burden = ROFLMAO HA HA HA>>> this is a neat way to cleanse the spirit. Reminds me of the 'burning bowl' ceremony!

Burden = I am self destructive in an identifiable cycle ever since I was 12. Will I just go on and on in a "I'm great I can conquer the world" motivational frenzy followed in time by I'm a fat nothing loser slit my wrists and get it over cirle???????

Burden = Never enough money for the basics only child was killed 7 yrs. ago Mother's day weekend. Suffer from endogonous depression lousy childhood asshole mean stepfather that abused and beat my mother asshole husband lousy relatives asshole half sibs just hard times and a hard way to go and not of my choosing and I don't attract it to me. Alcoholic bio-father ...............

Burden = Just finished reading burden list suddenly things don't seem as bad. My true intentions were looking for my birth mother from RI 12/68. I just don't want to cause any trouble. I'll have to put more time into it later.

Burden = My burden is my son who doesn't seem to want to grow up. He is 24 and only through my persistant demands has he found a job. But he needs to be independent from me and find his own place in the world. He doesn't want to move away from home. He doesn't have any responsibilities.

Burden = lack of money

Burden = I'm a fifty-eight year old grandmother living on my own for the first time ever job-hunting - hoping to find a way to support myself. I try to think positive and hold the good thought but I'm not always successful in this. Could use a prayer or two if you're so inclined.

Burden = I neither find happiness in sharing my burden with others or in sharing others burdens. Burdens do not make me happy. My burdens are mine. I share thim with my Lord through the portal of prayer. But I do thank you for the opportunity and hope your endeavors will benefit others with differing philosophies. As an aside you have a very interesting family. I wish you all the best in your life and your thoughts. May God bless you. These are sincere wishes from a devout Christian baptized in a Southern Baptist Church who is pained when my fellow believers limit God with man made doctrines.